New Zealand

New Zealand

About six or seven years ago,

My father sent me to New Zealand for studies and travel.

That was my first time to go abroad.

I was very exciting to that I can do some different plan in that summer vacation.

For most people,

traveling in New Zealand might be a wonderful experience.

Maybe, it will be the most impressing travel in people's life because of the beautiful landscape there,

the wonderful atmosphere there,

and the most friendly people there.

Of course, It was a wonderful journey for me, too.

But, somehow, the people there did not always let me feel good in that 30-days travel. 

After I was back from Auckland, 

the only thing I told my family and my best friends is that I have a special experience of going abroad, 

said "It was a good time for me." , and nothing more.

I never tell anyone about something bad had happened to me in NZ.

I keep it as a secret for a long time.

I think that the long time lets me almost forget those secrets.  

But, at one night, when I was sleeping in the bed,

I recalled the memory again, and I dreamed an unhappy dream... 

It is a very clear part of the memories in my brain. 

During the traveling period,

My home stay was fine.

My studies was fine.

My roommates were fine.

Everyday, our schedule was that

half day to study and another half day to go sightseeing.

But one day, 

after we were off the class and finished our lunch,

everybody was going to

take the bus to play around in Auckland.

At that time, I didn't know why but a chaos happened.

Some of my classmates were a little nervous,

and some of them were a little mad.

They were all whispering to each other.

Of course that

I wanted to know what happened on the spot.

So I asked some classmates to get me clear the situation.

Finally,

I got the information that is just one male Taiwanese student watching some tig mag in the bookstore, and one of our teachers saw that on the spot.

So the teacher asked our tour guide for some punishment on him. 

That's not a big deal, isn't it?

I heard that and ask her(my tour guide) why the teacher was so strict that he thought that student must be punished. 

After I brought up the question, something weird happened.

She(tour guide) scolded me that why I was so curious about the gossip, why didn't I shut up.

And said that I was suck that I can't control my mouth to annouce the gossip,

and I was the guy who don't know how to say the right thing at the right place. "

At that time

I was trying to explain something to my Chinese tour guide but she didn't give me any chance on the spot.

Then, the image stream of memory stopped but still displaying in my dream. 

(I was still dreamming).

I thought I had to explain something after she scolded me,

and I recalled the memory again to wonder if I was wrong for everything happened on the day.

Obviously, I didn't sleep well at that night.

Before that day, everything was fine.

But after that day, everything changed.

My tour guide didn't want to talk to me.

The person who took me to NZ(You can say she is my original tour guide.) didn't want to talk to me, either.

She just said that I really made her(who scolded me) angry, and I really have to do self-examination.

I was freezed by the whole tour guide group.

And, the most important thing was that I didn't know why I made them so angry.

There must be some big misunderstanding, and I lost their trust. 

During the travel, I didn't have chance to do any effort to explain I was innocent and I didn't mean to hurt anyone in the group.

I just did one thing, shut up, shut up, and shut up~~~

I seldom talk with anyone after that day, because I was afraid of doing mistake again by "my words".

I was not happy, I was very unhappy.

God, Damn it.

The last day on the bus I ask my original tour guide"did I improve my ~bad mouth~?

I really did some effort not to say anything wrong again."

She said

"As far as I thought, when you ask me this question,

you still don't understand how to say the right thing at the right place."

Shit!!!! What's the hell??

I am the guy who always wants to make others mad???

In fact,

I am the guy who don't want to have any quarrel with anyone or hurt anyone even I have to sacrifice something to keep the peace we have.

P.S.

All the conversations in this article are in Chinese originally,

but I explain them in English.

Maybe there are some translation mistakes.

Xuite Wretch Alec Wrote It On Nov.15 , 2008